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Strive for light, let night fall
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They suck, 'nuff said.

Been working on ideas for more art, possibly going to mass-upload at some point.
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Been a while since I did one of these... I guess it's time for an update, partly because it's been so long since my last one and at some point I wanted to do these regularly. Mostly this is to get things out of my head.

Been a long time, and not just the fact that I haven't written one of these in a long time... The last few years were a crazy ride... Spending the last five years mostly homeless, moving from couch to couch trying to make ends meet and keep myself and my (former) love fed.

I had decided to go all in for the one I loved, despite the advice of my friends and family, and even my own intuition. It worked for a while, I guess.

There were signs, but I chose to ignore them... I suppose I thought things would work out, get better... yeah... That didn't happen... I guess its better than the way things could have ended up, but by no means did it turn out like I had hoped for.

I gave my heart to someone I thought would cherish it, but they stuck it on a shelf like a trophy and threw it out when they decided it was taking up too much room.

So now, here I sit, alone with the shards of a broken heart wondering how many more years it will be before it's pieced together, wondering if I'll ever find someone who will even want this abused and broken thing that used to be a heart...

I'm tired of losing friends and family... I'm tired of being used... I'm tired of being ignored... but mostly, I'm just tired...

I gave everything I had to give love a chance, I almost lost myself in the process. Part of me misses the companionship, part of me doesn't miss watching the one I cared for so deeply give themselves to every cute face that came along. Mostly though, I now look to the future, alone and afraid, hoping, praying, that things might finally be able to improve.
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New Art!!

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well, some may have noticed the splurge of new stuff, i got a new design program and i've been having at it, designing the ships for a scifi rp site i hang around. *yawns* not much else of note *shrugs*
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Love at last.

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At last. After two years. The man i love is at last in my arms. As i write this i am sitting next to him. After two years of waiting, hoping, and heartache, he's finally here. In my arms at last.

After two days of being with him, i can say that its everything i had dreamed of and more. Feeling his warmth next to me, even now while he's on his laptop and i'm on the comp next to the couch, I cant help but smile. Knowing that the one i love is finally next to me, i cant stop smiling. Even though my room-mates poke fun at us. some of the people stare and criticize. Some even say i should leave him for someone else. But being next to him i know that it was meant to be.

I knew from the beginning that he was the one, and now i'm completely sure. I was meant for him and he was meant for me.

My love, Hitarou, aka Setsuna. <3
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8D new post

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hello all you loyal viewers *pause, not even a cricket* .......<<......*presses a button, causeing a thunderous applause* 8D *bows* now seriously, its been like over a year since i updated so i'd like to say to everyone, that i'm back, i have my own comp again, and a lot of free time. so i'll be writing more stories and doing more art...well....i've had writers block the past few months....so...mayby not anything new right away.....in any case, YAY I'M BACK.....now i just need a scanner......ANYWHO.......umm.......*thinks* at the moment i'm just mainly bored, having nothing to do, so i'll probably write more stories, ENJOY...or i'll eat your soul!!
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